:+: BaLLeR :+:

move your body up and down..make ur booty touch the ground haha

2005-08-13T17:00:37Z

alright.

wednesday- went to the eye doctor..BIGG CHRRIISSSAAYYY <3 he said in like 2 weeks i can go back to howie the jew and get my trial pair of contacts..and if nothin happens then im good and can wear my contacts again..SUHWEET. hopefully it doesnt like swell up again..cuz then i wont be able to wear them like ever again..which is freakin gay let me tell you. anyway after that me and my mom went to Marshalls or something and i bought a hurley hoodie and a roxy zip up hoodie..i was excited. and then we went to meijers and went grocery shopping. then i dont remember what else.

thursday- went to st.stephens to drop off the menus, went and got my physical..apparently i have to much protein in my urine..whatever that means haha, then we went to buy me some new uniform stuff..187$ on ugly ass clothes..puurddy sweet...yea it was depressing to go see our uniforms and think that school is just around the corner *sad face*...but yea then we went to BK, went to my grammas <3, went home took a nap, went to kohls bought some bras $60 for 2 bras...yea and they arent even like cute ones either cuz they dont make cute bras for big titties, then we went to target and then adrian and amanda came over we watched harold and kumar and oliver and company and took a nap on my bed. adrian killed a spider with his HAND,then wiped his hand on my face. GROSS. then yea amanda spent the night.

friday- FUCKING EMINEM CONCERT!. woo. so me and amanda woke up at like 1:15 got ready..jolyn came over... so it was Me my mother and father, devin, jolyn, amanda, and my brother and his HOT friend met up with us. we went to Higgity Higgitys..aka the coney island..he wasnt there but this other cute lil greek man was there.. he had a unibrow and gave us all coney hats. we are now bffs with him. <3 so then we took the people mover thingie to comerica. these drunk ass girls were asking us for directions and yelling about 50 cent...they were kind of funny but annoying. then we went and got our seats and stuff.. lil jon came on with the eastside boys and what not..he was good but i dont really know any of his stuff..so we pretty much just sat and watched people..there are sum nasty ass skanks and wiggers there man like..loooads of trailor trash. it was glorious. haha..then uhm 50 cent and like g-unit and all of them came on. they were really good..like they sounded like exactly like they do on the radio so that was cool..and yea they were really good. (i just grabbed avi's boob..haha i love avi..after the concert he partied with lloyd banks and lil scrappy and tony yayo...JEALOUSSS) anyway...yea so 50 was gooood. some kid threw up on the stairs RIGHT next to our seats..my dads like OK SEE YA! and ran up the stairs to go stand haha..my mom cried cuz she had to sit next to it and smell it..so we made her go stand with my dad. my dad danced with some random man selling beer or something..that was funny. we used the buddy system! BUDDY! hhaha jolyn was my buddy. uhm then eminem came on..He was like fucking amazing. he was super good and he showed his ass and i love him and want to have his baaaaabies. haha yep. he did lil skits like he had mariah careys voice and stuff and then he was like U MAKE ME SICK..and did the puke song..it was cute haha then he did like this thing for michael jackson and him and all the other rappers signed these baby dolls and like threw them off the stage..hes like yea this is my baby NAPKIN..and this is TAMPON...hahah it was great i love him <3 and hes so hott. damn. anyway yea everyone held up their lighters and that was really pretty. i was dancing making fun of this one girl and accidently punched this guy in the head..i fixed his hat and i was like woops sorry..then later he smacked me on accident and almost punched me in the face about 3 times. haha yea um d12 and them came on and like obie trice and stat quo..they were good..they brought their lil kids on stage..cute cute... but yea i think like the best song was Lose yourself..cuz like EVERY single person in the whole place was singing it and like goin crazy it was so loud and yea it was great. they had fireworks at the end..AMAAAZING <333 then after we went back to the coney island to see higgity higgity.. on the way there we were walking and this car pulled like right up next to us and my dads like OMG THEIR GONNA KILL US.. and this kid in the cars like GIMME UR MONEY..my dads like HERE HERE IT IS!....but i have to fart!...haha omg it was so funny but i guess u had to be there..haa anyway so yea higgity was being mean cuz he was grumpy but hes still cute and i love him. and uhm yea my dad was hilarious during the concert cuz he was like dancing and stuff..haha gooood times. it was seriously a lot of fun. but yea then we drove amanda home and me and jolyn went to bed. <333 woo fun stuff i love eminem <3 lol. k im done.

AND TODAY..i got my freakin schedule for school..IT FUCKING SUCKSSSSSS. like seriously i have all hard gay classes and like omg its so gay. i think i have ONE blow offy class..and thats photo1.. fuck im just dropping out of school okay.

omg and yea this kid at the coney island..had one of the dolls signed by eminem and 50 and all of them...oh yea and trick trick was there too and they sang welcome to detroit city..fuckin good stuff <3

k im done.

i am missing you to death.

2005-08-10T03:09:58Z

ook ok ok.

monday- MY GRANDMAS BIRTHDAY! 79 BITCH! ha i loooove love love my grandma..shes like my most favorite person in the whole world. so yes we went and took her out to eat. and got her balloons and a thing of flowers that was like shaped like a cake..it was really cool..and we got her her golf shoes that she wanted.. yes we went to olive garden...it was alright i didnt really like what i got though but whatev. then we went back to her house and had some BUNT cake..which was good but it had coconut on it and yea i dont really like coconut. but yes so that was cute and i love my grandma <33 then after that we came home and yea i finished my picture..in my coloring book..haha i tend to color alot these days cuz im sweet like that u know..yeaaa haha anyway then adrian came over and we watched tv and LIAR LIAR was on! good movie..but i didnt really watch it cuz we colored together haha.. we are cute okay. we may be big losers but we are cute. and yea we compared our handwriting and stuff...i am so much better..this is the ONE thing i can beat him at. haha GO ME. anyway yea so that was fun. and uhmm..

tuesday- i woke up to my dog crying..cuz she wanted to go outside..what a fag...then i let her out and devin woke up so i just went in my room and read a book..cuz im sweet u know..then i eventually went and took a shower and got ready..then i got like extremely depressed. i hate everything about me. i hate my face my teeth my hair my stomach..i just suck. blah!..anyway so then we went to the dentist..me and devin and my mom scared some ppl in the waiting room by quoting austin powers MOLEY MOLEY MOLEY and laughing hysterically..haha yes as adrian pointed out..we scare a lot of ppl like the lady at applebees..but what can i say..me and devin are fun to be with..loud & obnoxious is so much fun haha..anyway so yea my teeth are clean i got a new toothbrush..they checked my mouth for oral cancer..and it made me laugh cuz they like pull ur tongue out and like yea i dunno i thought it was funny..anyway we went to TJ MAXX i was gonna get like a lil zip up hoodie thing..but they didnt have any cute ones.. then we went to the Modern Exchange..devin wanted this Tennis skirt thing..but it wouldnt fit her so she wanted me to get it..it was cute but idk i didnt really want it..we came home i ate a salad and talked to MEG OCHMANEK for like the first time in a while. we made up rules for AIM and MYSPACE...we are cool kids ok! haha i love herrrr.. anyway then yea i went and tried to nap...didnt work..sat there and contemplated life..got angry/upset...finished my coloring...then did all the word puzzles and stuff in my coloring book..then i went outside to bug my dad and adrian came over.. we watched tv and yea that was fun. my dad is a nerd but i love him. he made me and adrian go outside and help him move picnic tables..i stood there as adrian and my dad did all the work. haha <33 good stuff.. yea and we watched part of american pie.. then yea he went home..<3...my mom is gayy gay gay cuz she just yelled at me for being mean and making fun of her while ppl are over which i did not do..but whatev. she just tried to beat me up..haha funniest thing everrr...anyway yea tomorrow..

goin to get a physical i think then the eye doctor..then the other tj maxx to look for a lil hoodie thing..

i saw this hat at modern exchange that said "the fastest way to a man's heart is through his zipper"..it made me laugh. <3

but yea i think im done.

OMG a few days ago when i was with adrian we went to 711 and this guy was like staring at me when i opened the door and then i turned to like hold it up for adrian and the crazy rapist guy was still staring at me..then i turned around again to look at adrian and he was walking outside the store...staring at me throught the windows...it was creepy. and i dont know why but i just thought of that..haha CRAZY RAPIST! haha OMG. i miss marie.. that was random..but today i told my mom to make me macaroni then i asked for some hot dogs..i was like MARIE ALWAYS MAKES HOT DOGS TOO WHEN SHE MAKES ME MACARONI...I MISS HER SOOOO MUCH..*sad face*..

haha.. yea so we go back to school in like TWENTY days.. SIIIICK. *cries*..but yea the Only reason i want to go back is to see marie again like everyday... other wise..fuck that. i hate schoooool. blah

FLORIDA - 7 days BAByyyy! <333
EMINEM - THIS FRIIIIIDAYYYY

alright this was long and pointless. good day <3

i like frosted rice krispies. yesssss.

2005-08-08T02:35:33Z

alright. so..

saturday- i basically sat at home all day cuz kp left me home alone all day...and then we were gonna go to tj maxx..cuz i like their purses..but adrian came over...and we watched laguna beach..yea he finally got to watch his dumb episode that he missed last time haha..then ryan just showed up. i like how they dont tell me that they are coming over..but they just show up...haha <33..anyway so yea we watched finding nemo! i looove it. and me and adrian colored in my coloring book that he bought me. haha we had a contest. i didnt finish my picture though cuz it was taking too long..but mine still looked better. i mean hes not a bad colorer for being a boy..usually boys suck haha..but yeaaa ryan was the judge..and he picked adrians over mine.. i was like WTF u only picked his cuz hes BLACK!...and then adrian took it to show my mom and she picked mine! haha BEAT THAT haha..but yea...then i painted adrian's nails..like metallic pink.. cuzz he cracked his knuckles!..yes we made a bet that if he cracked his knuckles in front of me..then i could paint his nails..haha he was doing pretty good for a few days..but i always win. haha anyway yea he didnt like that very much..but he let me do it cuz hes such a nice lil boy haha..then we took pictures of it and then i took it off cuz he was being a baby. but im gonna do it again and make him keep it on like all day.. we will see how that goes haha anyway..so yea then my mom went shopping...and me and adrian and ryan went in my bed to take a nap...that didnt really work..haha then we called molly and keri..and we went to mollys house...and LUIGI was there!!! ahh i looove luigi <333 and then like as soon as we get there mollys like okay we are goin somewhere else its a surprise!...yea well we went to chelsey thomas's house. and yeaaaa there were some other kids there...one was haleys ex bf...and this one was really weird like he kept pacing around and he walked funny and like when he talked he was so serious and didnt look at anyone..it was weird. haha anyway so then they left and we went inside...chelsey has a pretty big house..even tho i only saw like 2 rooms...we went in the basement and watched scary movie 2...good movie..haha keri was hilarious cuz she didnt understand anything and kept falling asleep..shes cute <3 haha anyway yea so that was funnnn..i love those kids <33...and uhm Oh i saw ryans new house that hes moving too..and i waved to TWO yes TWO random kids! haha yesss...anyway yea that was funnnn.. i love ryan and adrian <3333 bff's haha but yea i miss marie..and JOLYN!? what the eff..me n her need to hang out!

alright so today..sunday..i woke up at like almost one..jus cuz my mom woke me up...haha yea and i went to bed pretty early yesterday too..like 12...right after ryan and adrian left..wow i suck haha i think i have like a sleep problem..but oh well <33 i felt bad cuz i didnt go to church..but ahh i did not feel like moving...sorry jesus <3...then uhm yea i talked to erica for like the first time in forever...and that was cool..then i went to my grammas. i ate..watched a friends marathon..and helped her with her puzzle..i got like 18 pieces...haha i so rock at life. anyway yes i love friends and i LOVE LOVE LOVE my gramma <33 but i wish she would have made spaghetti..haha anyway..yea then we came home and i was gonna go hang out with ian and erica and go watch a movie with them at some kids apt. but then i was like hmmm..yea dont feel like doing that..haha so i just stayed home cuz im cool like that. but yes me and erica are for sure hanging out before i go to florida...heck yesss. i miss her alot. anyway yes so i just licked the spoon and bowl from this cake that devin was making...hmmmmm cake batter is love <333 but i def got it all over me ..like my hands, face, and shirt..haha im like retarded or something..but yeaaaaaaa i love it. okay im kind of hyper PAUL IS COMING OVERRRR!! i love paul! haha <-- devins bf. yeaaa im done. bye bye bye ,333333

woooo!...peace out <33

everything is alright.

2005-08-06T15:17:04Z

uhm so yea..

thursday- def. sat home like the entire day and did nothing..well i went shopping with my mother to kohls and target...i got socks for school..that excited me which is pretty pathetic haha but yea i think thats all i got...anyway yea then we went and got some KFC! i love kfc haha and yea i got a penguin postcard from melissa from when she went to cali. melissa is cute. haha and then i read a magazine..i know..my day was extremely exciting right? right. haha

friday- uhm yea so my mom left me home alone like the entire day. MARIE CAME OVER! at like 10 in the morning and woke me up by calling my house and banging on my front door.. omG I LOVE HERRRR! she brought me chocolate chip pancakes!! she is freaking amazing...def. better than you! haha anyway so yea that was nice...then i just spent the rest of the day sitting around, and i actually like read a book! i knowww amazing right..haa and then i went to clean my room..and saw my bed and i was like hmm i will just lay down for a sec...woke up 2 hours later...haha then instead of actually cleaning my room..i just like put away some clothes and straightened it up a lil..adrian made fun of my cleaning. hes lame.
anyway..then my mom came home like at 730 and brought me subwayyyyy..then adrian just showed up. haha and yea we were trying to think of something to do..i wanted to take a nap...he yelled at me..haa then we ended up going to Toys R Us...cuz we are freakin ballers okay. we saw ryan driving!! i LOVE ryan! and then yea we went to toys r us..i pretty much had to look at everything and play with everything and touch just about every toy i saw. haha im so sweet. they had like fake KFC buckets..it was gloriousss haha..then yea he made fun of me alot..but then he gets all excited when he sees like this bike thing..i was like yea..u make fun of me...hahah and yea i only got to look at like half the store cuz it closes at 9..who closes at 9?! anyway..so we are def. going back..but anyway it was funny cuz we went there to get chalk..but we didnt even get any..lol..and then on the way out he got like these glow stick things from the lil vending machine thingie...yea his didnt work..haha..and then he took mine and threw it out the window. *sad face*. then we went to the parkkk..even though it was dark and he like beat me up cuz i wouldnt go on the tire swing.. WEINER. anyway haha then we came back to my house we were gonna watch NEMO! but my mom was watching some dumb lifetime movie..so we went in my room and colored. haha yea he bought me a hello kitty coloring book cuz we were talking about coloring one day...yea we are cool. haha and then he like got all into it..hes a good colorer..haha and i just took a nap and then he jumped on me and wouldnt let me nap..so we watched JUMANJI!!! haha he didnt want to watch that cuz hes gayyy..but whatever. but yea that was funnnn..

and uhm today is SATURDAYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...and i dont know whats going on. i was sitting here talking to marie. but she just left to go to higgins lake for a whole freakin week. i am sad. i will miss her *sad face* <33

alright anyway i think im done now. peace out. <3

OMG. so i saw motion city soundtrack on MTV. and i wanted to die. MTV IS GAY. and i hate how all these cool bands are like on there now..cuz its lame..cuz all the dumb lil 12 yr olds see them on there and they are like OMG i love PUNK and ROCK..and yea. its gay. stupid 12 yr olds.. blah!

Ooh babyyyy..!

2005-08-04T04:32:18Z

well alright.

tuesday- i didnt do anything for like most of the day then maybe around 4 or 5 adrian came and got me and we went to heritage park cuz we are ballers. we swang* on the swings and like talked about the fireworks and stuff...then we walked around the lake and he tried to throw me in..? real cool. then uhm we sat there for like an hour just watching these freaking ducks...haha..i mean come on we are freakin cool kids. other kids are out partying and getting pregnant and what not...we are watching ducks. jealous? i think you should be. anyway yea there was this really loud annoying goose that was like chasing the other geese and just walking..all by itself..nobody around it just squaking at the top of its lil goose lungs...haha and it was sooo annoying ..i was like hahaha wow that goose reminds me of devin.. haah i love you devin.<3 anyway then this one fish like kept jumping out of the water..i was amazed..then this lady and her lil song had like 2 bags full of bread and started feeding em..and like every single duck and goose at the park came over and it was like a feeding frenzy...ducks were fighting with fish over pieces of bread..haha cuuurrraaazyyy let me tell you. and yea we talked about his brothers like putting the fish in the lake..and how i used to have ducks. i felt like such a hillbilly too after telling him that story i was like..wow..wtf why did i tell you that. i am a fag. *puts head down*..haha but then devin called..then my mom called...ugh..and we came back..devin and my mom went out to eat..so me and adrian watched a movie. ryan came over too. and then amanda came over. we watched mean girls and then we watched part of 50 first dates but we had to stop it so we could see who died on the real world. adrian was like..ITS HIS DOG..IM TELLIN YOU! hahaha what a fag. but yea it was dannys mom. how sad. it was saddddd...and then the boys left and then me and my mom and amanda got in this huge argument about having them over everyday and how its wrong to have them over when im home alone and yea...we just yelled a lot. and wow i was really mad. my mom was being super lame. anyway yea that was my night.

wednesdayyy- uhm so me and amanda didnt wake up til like 1 haha even though we didnt even go to bed that late. we rock. we played this dumb addicting game..then uhm took showers and stuff.. her mom came and picked her up and brought us food. my mom left before that though to go shopping...and uhm yea then after amanda left...adrian and ryan were supposed to come over. adrian didnt come at first cuz idk something about his mom being gay i think. and ryan never answered me if he was gonna come or not.so i called him and told him to come entertain me cuz i was bored and in a bad mood cuz my computer was being GAY and wouldnt let me online. lame lame lame. so then me ryan and adrian watched freaky friday..and omg ryan was like lighting his sock on fire..it was scary but hilarious haha then we had to watch part of YOU GOT SERVED cuz ryans a freakin dorkk..but then he had to go home cuz he got in trouble and had a 9 o clock curfew haha..so then me and adrian watched SAVE THE LAST DANCE!! <33..best movie ever..haha and my mom came home and was like watching it with us and she kept saying how the one girl was a bitch and blah blah shes such a dork haha.. but yea i love that movie. and i made sure i quoted some of it just to show adrian up..haha and yea then he went homeeee...<33

**8-3-05 :D

but yes...my mother is extremely embarrassing.. i mean yea its funny but other times ur like omg *gun to head*..haha..yeaaa..soooo okay i think im done.

PeACe OuT plAyA. <33

so please don't go away...won't this feeling stay with me forever...

2005-08-02T17:57:28Z

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in (or for the PG-13 version, eat with you).
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.

^ stole that from the amazing KELLY SORANNO!! haha srry kelly i love you.

anyway...yea

today is...Tuesday? Yay!

mmkay so lets see monday.. i did absolutely nothing at all! it was quite wonderful. i woke up at like 12...took a shower...got bored...took a nap at 3..yep i took a nap after being awake only 3 hours haha IM SWEET. then devin came and jumped on me and then i went and sat in the car and sang to her while she practiced parallel parking..YUPPPPP we are awesome. then uhm yea i just sat around some more. i was gonna hang out with jolyn and ian..but they are lame. they always ask me to hang out but then they dont know what to do..and cant think of anything so we end up just sitting at home. its real cool. haha then i watched tv for a while..and adrian just came over? haha he brought me mountain dew! which was cute cuz i told him earlier that i like really wanted some mountain dew. whatta cutie. haha so yea we watched tv..like One on one or w/e that show is...then some laguna beach reruns. i felt bad cuz i made him miss the new episode..i know he must have been sad cuz he is a weiner and like loves that show. haha but its ok cuz he will see it like 10 more times within the next couple of days cuz all mtv does is play that and the real world..lame lame lame. anyway yea that was nice of him. and he said he didnt care about missing laguna cuz he was having more fun with me. how adorkable. haha but yea that was my wonderful monday.

alright i think im done now.

haha omg the other day..adrians wallet fell out of his pocket and i went back in to get it for him..and my moms like..How did his wallet fall out of his pants? huh? i was like..BECAUSE I WAS IN HIS PANTS...DUHH!...hahah...yea it was funnier at the time...well i thought it was funny...haha k im done. *puts head down*

PeAcE oUt hOmiEs. <33

yea im like craaaazy hyper right now. its kind of fun..WOO!

everybody..everybody just bounce...

2005-08-01T17:01:37Z

alright lets see.

saturday- uhmm slept in..like way in...it was reallll niice. then yea i went to my grammas cuz we usually go on sunday but she wasnt gonna be home sunday..they made spaghetti! it was glorious. she makes the best spaghetti everrrr so i was excited and ate like..alot..then i couldnt eat anymore and felt like i was gonna explode..it was great haha..then i sat and watched part of HOW HIGH..i loove that movie haha..then i went upstairs and took like a 2 1/2 hour nap...fuckin glorious lemme tell u. then yea uhm chilled with my gramma..man i love her. and then we came home..and i sat around and did nothing.. i was gonna go hang out with ian but we couldnt think of anything to do and ians just a loser..so i just sat around and took a nap at like 9 o clock at night because i had nothing at all better to do with my life. how depressing haha.

sunday- uhm sunday was warped tour. i didnt go. i got invited to go with megan and her friends but idk i didnt really feel like spending the whole entire day with megan and people that i dont know. cuz they would probably go smoke pot or crowd surf and mosh and im a pansy and would just be standing there by myself. and plus i didnt really feel like going anyway. i went last yr and it was fun but it wasnt that great really.. so yea but then i felt kind of bad like..aww i could have been at warped tour today..cuz i saw like every1's away msg said they were there..i was like..aww..*puts head down*..haha but its cool. anyway so i just chilled around the house for a few then adrian said he was coming over...so he came over haha. anyway we watched the sweetest thing and then we left to go to his house and get the hot chick cuz thats like the best movie ever. so we went and got that i met his parents and his lil sis and bro..they are cute.. but i think they were like afraid of me..his sister was like hiding behind his mom. haha but yea it was kind of awkward..i was like..hi im chelsey..then his dad asked me how i was and stuff and then his mom was like introduced all of them and said their names..i was like...well...im chelsey haha...and then yea it was a lil awkward i dunno if they liked me or not but oh well. then we went in his house and got the movie. his house is cool because its green and thats my fav color so im excited. haha and i liked his bunk beds cuz they were cool..haha then yea when we were leaving his dad was like Oh what movie of mine are you stealing now? i was like..uhm..the hot chick...? yea..woo i hate awkwardness.. but yea then we went to the park** and played on the swings. there was this boy and girl there that kept staring at us..which was kind of creepy.. then adrian wanted to play bumper cars..but i didnt want to cuz hes a beast and would prob kill me..then he like twisted my swing all around and omg that sucked i was so dizzy..haha then yea he was gonna give me a underdoggie but he thought i was going to kick him in the head and gouge out his eye..hahha...yea i guess u had to be there to find that funny..hahah oh well..anyway then we came back to my house and devin and paul were watching dumb and dumber so we watched the rest of that..then we watched the hot chick**...u think ur so cool cuz u can pee with ur penis..haha i looove it. <33 then yea we watched ellen on comedy central..her stand up thingie..it was funny and adrians like..why are we watching this lesbian? me and devin were like WE LOVE THIS DYKE!! haha it was funny <3 i love ellen. anyway then yea we watched part of that show wild'n out...Fuckin gayyyy lemme tell u haha..then he went home and yea.. today was fun. i like the park. and i like to swing. haha good day.

** :D

peaceeee out. <3

use the brakes baby...

2005-07-30T15:38:43Z

so yea..this will prob be really long since ive missed a few days. here we go.

alright tuesday night- went n got my hurr did with marie. she said she was gonna go back to something close to my natural color. i wanted to stay bright blonde like i was before but then i didnt feel like having to keep redying it cuz of my roots and all that nonsense. so i was like alright natural color will do.. so yea now its definitely like a reddish brown. my natural color is like dirty blonde haha..but its cool i liked it alot the first night but then the next day i was like idk i like the color but idk if i like it on me. anyway after that we went driving around with brandy toni her puppy kIARA..cutest dog everrrr and im stealing it cuz brandys mean. and then we met up with these kids who were like..on drugs or soemthing...acting like retards i was like woww..i wanna go home. they were like Omg shes only 16...why are you hanging out with her? i felt like a loser. haha anyway yea.. i went home and hung out with amanda..i was kind of mad too cuz marie was going to get drunk that night at her sisters which i thought was pretty gay since we were leaving early to go to the zoo and she was gonna hafta go walk around all day at the zoo..but i was like..whatever...

wednesday- MY BIRTHDAY!!!!- uhm so yea i got up at like friggin 8:30..ew..me and amanda got ready..my mom yelled at me and told me i needed to learn how to do my hair right? which to her means curling it under so i look like a total fag. i was like w/e its ugly and ur gay. my mom makes me angry sometimes. anyway so yea then lorin and rollins came and adrian and marie...marie couldnt go to the zoo cuz her moms gay and didnt feel comfortable with a teenager driving her on the freeway..LAAAME. but she came over anyway to give me my presents. haha i love her. then yea we waited like a half n hour for dumb ass ryan so we watched dora the explorer..hahah. im SWEET. adrian like..knew the words and everything..it was pretty funny. anyway then ryan finally came so we hit the road and yea then we got to the zoo. it was hilarious cuz adrian was sayin how the animals are never out when he goes to the zoo and i was like yea thats cuz they dont like u they know ur coming..so the first thing we go to see are the seals..there is not one seal in sight im like god damn you adrian..and ryan does this lil impression of the seals running away cuz they know adrians coming...it was soooo funny i love ryan thomas. hahahah anyway so yea we walked around and i LOVE the zoo. a giraffe looked RIGHT AT ME. it knew it was my birthday hahah..but yea so that was fun. then we came home and took a nap..well rollins and lorin went home...and just me amanda ryan and adrian went back to my house. we were all in my bed...trying to nap but i just wouldnt shut up.haha srry guys..then my mom and devin came home and we went out to eat at applebees with my GRAMMA!! <33333 they sang to me..and devin like scared the waitor so bad cuz she was loud and crazy and fucking sneezed all over him..hahahaha. then uhm we came back and watched the notebook..even tho u couldnt really hear it or anything. then lorin and jolyn came over for a while and then we played TWISTER..well i just watched cuz my stomach hurt..but yea.. we played twister.. haha so yea my bday was good..it might sound pretty gay on here but it was fun if u were there...well it was for me. haha uhmmm lets see what i got present wise : a ring with my birthstone, black eyed peas cd, the notebook, TWISTER <3, a puppy stuffed animal i named EUGENE haha, uhm invader zim earrings and shoelaces, nailpolish, dane cook cd thing, and yea there was more but i def cant remember haha. oh well. THANK YOU to everyone who got me stuff and celebrated with me. i loooove you kids. <33 ooh and my mom and devin decorated for me when i got back from the zoo..so cute.. and its def like 3 days later and i wont let them take it down haha..anddd throughout the whole day on my bday i made ppl do everything for me..im like come on...its my BIRTHDAY u hafta do it. hahhaha...lets just say ppl were counting down the hours til midnight when they could punch me in the face cuz it wasnt my bday anymore..hahaha <33 IT'S JAZZ BITCH!!...that will never DIE. hahaha oh and at the zoo...after seeing all these cool animals like giraffes and elephants..adrian gets all excited over a fucking rolie polie crawling on the ground...what a faggggg...haha he picked it up and like watched it crawl on his hand..hahahah then stupid rollins killed it. it was quite sad.

thursdayyy- i had GAY tennis. i totally sucked and i felt bad for this girl KATEE who had to be my partner..cuz i totally lost that for her haha..sorry.. then yea we drove tucci home and got taco bell..and then devin was having a bonfire with her friends so i invited a few people over. i was gonna have more but i didnt feel like asking ppl and like inviting them cuz im a lazy whore. so it ended up being me amanda ryan adrian and jolyn. we watcheddd dodgeball and the girl next door. and we ate some more of my bday cake..it was good stuff. i dont really remember anything else that exciting that happened. but thursday was fun too. yay.

fridayyy- uhm so yea amanda def spent the night 4 nights in a row this week. cuz shes sweet haha and we didnt even get sick of eachother or like anything. we are awesome <33 and i love her. anyway so we get up and play this fucking computer game we've been playing for like 4 days and then ryan shows up cuz hes like not allowed to stay at his house cuz ppl were coming to look at it. then he gets into the game and yea it was just funny..my mom made waffles.. EFFIN SWEET!.. then we went to play tennis at huron. so adrian comes over to go play but then we had to go get tennis balls from ryans house. we were sposed to meet up at like 230...we were late. ryan drove past the place like twice. i was like WTF ARE U DUMB!?! haha so then yea i didnt even feel like playing tennis so i just sat there and complained about how hot it was.. me and adrian watched jolyn ian amanda and ryan play doubles..it was kind of sad. haha.then jolyn had to go home cuz she had to work..and yea then we got hot and went back. i dont think we were even out there for like..a full hour..haha so we went back to my house and i got money. we went to 711 and got slurpees..i paid for everyone except for adrian cuz hes too cool u know. then ryan dropped us off and i went and took a shower. & adrian went home to take a shower.. then amanda went home after we yelled at our moms about tennis for a while haha. then adrian and ryan both came back. my mom went shopping with noreen. and ryan and devin went to hollys house for her 16th bday partay.. so me and adrian watched deuce bigalow male gigolo..hahaha good movie..and the notebook again...anddd then devin and ryan came back with KFC after we called them to get them out of the party lol then yea we ate our KFC...devin went with kara somewhere..then ryan went and to keris house for a few. me and adrian finished the notebook..then went and got THE LION KING..and omg so ryan and keri come back to my house and my hair is like all sticking up and stuff cuz i was laying down on the couch...yea so i walk out of my bedroom with adrian and my hairs all sticking up..keri was like...nice hair chelsey..what were u guys doing??...haha i thought it was funny..anyway so we all watched the lion king. adrian being his usual nerdy self..sang along to all the songs hahah and then my mom comes home and instead of saying hi or anything she just bursts in and is like...WERE U GUYS HAVING SEX!?! WERE U PLAYING TOUCHY FEELY!?! HUH!? HUH!?! i was like OMG.. ryans like GOD KP I WAS IN MID RHYTHYM AND U JUST BURST IN HERE...hahhaha and omg i think keri was like scared or something cuz shes never like even met my mom and she just runs in there and starts questioning us all..haha my mom is so gay. anyway then shes saying stuff from the other room and adrians like GO TO BED! and she comes in there and is like WHAT DID U SAY!! and like starts pinching him...haha then we watched the simpsons and keri and ryan went home..and then we watched some of the wedding planner cuz it was on tv and its such an adorable movie. and then adrian went home and yea. it was a good night. this week has been prettyyyy good. i love my friends. fun kids lemme tell u. lol :D

yeaaaa... (k1) :-*

alright im done. this was long. deal with it.

peace out fooooools <33

this is a make believe world..

2005-07-26T21:39:07Z

Okay so!...

my birthday ~ ONE MOTHER FUCKING DAYYYY!!!. i really do not know why im so excited. but i am. so there. haha

anywhooo.. lets start with monday.

alright monday i did absolutely nothing like..all day. haha then at like 6 me and black kid went up to truman to play some tennis. lets just say it wasnt pretty haha. he wasnt that great..but i think he was just like not tryin..so that i could win and feel good about myself since u know i SHOULD win since i actually play tennis on a team and such. but yea i love how he serves. funniest thing ever. but i pretty much sucked horribly. and i got really tired really fast. which is not good cuz before that was the only reason i was like even any good cuz i ran around and got to the ball..and didnt tire out easily..im so out of shape..i have never been this out of shape in my life. i really hate it. and i feel fat and ughhh..laaame haha. anyway so then we went to 711 after we got all tired out haha and then came home and i didnt have a key so i couldnt get in cuz devins a weiner. so then we went to eureka heights to go on the swings. but we ended up just sitting in the car and talking while he drank his slurpee. we were gonna call adrian but i dont know his # then we were gonna go to his house but i dont know exactly what house is his..and i didnt want to like..just go knock on his door haha..so yea we just sat there..it was pretty sweet. then we came home and he helped me take the garbage out cuz hes a good lil black man. then amanda came over. and we talked to ppl online and listened to music.then we watched the season premiere of laguna beach..LB!! haha cuz everyone else was doing it and u just had to watch it cuz that show is gay and addicting.. haha and adrians a loser. hes like ITS GONNA BE SUCH A GOOD SEASON!! STEVEN AND KRISTEN ARE GONNA HOOK UP!..i was like..wow..faggg. haha but yea then uhm we watched that..ryan went home..me and amanda watched a movie in my room and i did her nails..very nicely might i add. haha then uhm this morning i was so counting on it to rain but nooooo..every single weather thing said THUNDERSTORMS and SCATTERED SHOWERS throught the day..it was def bright and sunny and extremely hot. I WAS SO PISSED. so we went to tennis...saw some protesters on the side of the street..i wanted to join them..but sadly i had to go to tennis. i sucked. it was windy and hot like hell. jr yells at me for everything..even yawning.. i suck at tennis i dont even know why i play. its depressing. then uhmmmmm it started to thunder and rain so we got out a half hour early..THANK THE LORD... then me jo amanda and tucci went to applebees for my bday. tucci got me 3 balloons..but 2 blew away cuz it was windy..and thats sad..haha but i still have one..so THANK YOU TUCCI I LOVE YOU!!. and jolyn made me a sign..so THANK YOU JOLYN I LOVE YOU!! haha.. and uhm then yea applebees every1 looked at us when we came in cuz we were laughing and really loud..plus soaking wet.. haha..so yea we just sat and ate and talked about school and everything it was cute. i love those girls. then my mom came and picked me amanda and jo up and took us back to my house. then i took a quick shower cuz marie was gonna come get me to get my hair done. but now shes not coming til like 730.. so i get to miss the tennis meeting tonight at 8...YESSSSS!!! haha but anyway so im gonna get my hair done tonight.. then tomorrow THE ZOO!! hopefully i mean i prayyyy that it does not rain. and i hope everyone can still come. i wish tucci and jolyn didnt have to work so they could come. but i think it will be fun..its gonna be me amanda ryan marie megan lorin rollins adrian..maybe ian and harvey..maybe keri and molly if they dont go to cedar point..and idk i just think it will be alot of fun..so i am excited.

I AM THE COOLEST 16 year old ever...because for my bday...instead of having a party or going to the movies or something LAME...i am going to the zoo with my friends...talk about BALLER. hahaha sweeeeeet.

alright well im done. this was a long one.

im EXCIIIIITED! <33

I'm Like A Beaver! hahah <33

2005-07-25T04:34:31Z

so..laguna beach starts tomorrow...technically since its 12:23...it starts today. idk why i said this.. apparently im excited. even though laguna beach is extremely annoying i have to admit i do like it from time to time haha. anyway

My birthday..2 days.im excited..idk why

alright anyway. today i woke up got ready u know all that fun stuff. then went to sarah and ricky sorannos wedding shower. i got seated with all of kellys friends..whom i dont know at all. i mean i know avery..but its not like we talk and the last time i saw her was hmm like 2 years ago. so yea i was sitting there awkwardly and then mrs.filek switched me seats so she could sit with her daughters and i could sit with my mommy. it was better that i was with my mom..but not by much since she didnt talk to me..and i was with all the older women. basically i knew nobody at this damn party haha.. but it was good. kelly looked cute. i wish i could have talked to her more and stuff but oh well. i won two prizes- a meditation set and a candle..ballerrrrr..haha and yea they had chocolate covered strawberries..it was nice. then i started my period..with a yellow fucking skirt on..but thank god it didnt go thru or anything. i had to go back in the kitchen area and ask devin for "stuff"..she didnt have any so i had to get it from mrs.showler...man i felt like a fucking loser..hahah cuz like everyone in the kitchen knew my situation and..yea..i felt pretty lame. haha anyway yea richard and michaela were working. i really miss them. i havent seen or talked to them in like forever and it really upsets me cuz we were so close. i mean me and michaela were bffs 1-8 grade and now we dont talk at all? it makes me kind of depressed. and yea me and richard were pretty tight too for a while. i hate how me and michaela were tight and me and richard were tight..but now michaela and richard are tight and i dont talk to either of them. and its hard too cuz today it was so awkward talking to them...like idk its the usual..hi how are you? hows life? school? family? yada yada yada..but idk i really just miss the way things were. so after the party i was in a depressing mood cuz i was like wow i hate my life. i miss my old friends and the way things used to be. so yea...depressing i know. then after that i bummed around and watched tv..kara marissa and devin came back so devin could get ready..kara and marissa are hilarious i love those girls haha.. and yea then i got pretty bored. i told adrian he needed to come get his glasses cuz he left them here..hes like yea or maybe u just want me to come over so we can hang out..i was like yea or maybe i just wanted u to get ur glasses but hey that works too..haha so he came over and we watched the sandlot <33 i love benny...but yea adrians so annoying he quoted like the whole movie..what a dork. then we watched the goofy movie...he sang all of the songs...hahaha...then we watched part of bring it on so he could see the spirit fingers...then we watched half of big daddy cuz he wanted to watch the kangaroo song part....he is pretty much the biggest dork ever. i mean u would never notice that by the way he acts at school and stuff..but oh wow.. haha big nerd. " I'm like a beaver!!" haahah.. good stuff. but yea it was fun. then he went home and like my mom comes in and shes like..WERE U TWO MAKING OUT IN HERE!?! i was like..wowwww..*gun to head*...haha shes a such a queer. but yeaaaa i think im done. peace out.

<333

memories...

2005-07-24T03:38:02Z

uh.

friday-...went out to eat with dev dad and mom to carabbas for an early bday thingamajig. it was nice. i ate this huuuge ass steak. conquered that bitch..and the funny thing was i wasnt even hungry..haha i rock. then i went home and sat around...such a boring day...went in my room and watched sandlot and read magazines..ryan came over..and yea...we talked...he slid in front of my door for like 5 mins..it was probably the funniest thing ever. i love that kid haha.

saturday- uhm got up at like 8. got ready. went to a funeral for my dads aunt. she seemed like a cool lady. it was sad. my aunt and uncles were crying..my gramma and grampa were crying..and my dad was crying. i pretty much feel like the world is coming to an end when my dad cries. idk i just feel like wow if HE is crying then this is really a sad day. the boy who played piano was a really good singer. the service was good.they said nice things about her..and my dad read. he did a good job i was sooo nervous for him lol. but yea after we had a luncheon thing. i ate a lot of fruit. i think my aunt like thinks im anorexic or something cuz i never seem to eat in front of her.. but its just cuz im not hungry. im a fatty at home haha. but yea they told stories about her and it was nice. and yea it just made me really wish i was like FULL irish. im like 25 percent irish but this made me wanna be extremely irish. i wanna marry an irish man with an accent..go to ireland..get an accent...and name my kids Riley and Rogan..and as ian said..maybe sheamus. haha but yea idk why but i was in such an irishy mood i came home and watched boondock saints...well after i took a nap and a shower first haha. but yea after that my mom and dad went to the wake. irish people are so damn cool. when i die...HUGE PARTY...get excited haha.. but yea after that i helped my bro load the bikes into the truck...marie came and got me and we went and saw bad news bears. it was funny..it wasnt really what i expected though. i mean it was good but it wasnt anything special really.but it did have sum funny stuff.
"thats the tooth fairy you homo"
" mom says i have cancer of the eye"
"i could have got that..and look at me...i cant even move"
"oh the little handicapped boy caught the ball!"
haha..good stuff. i liked the wheelchair kid, the quiet worthless retard kid, and the kid that cussed everyone out. badasses lemme tell you. haha

then yea on the way out me and marie couldnt find her car...we were like..DUDE..wheres the car!?...i was like we should make a movie!! yea...we are speds. it happens haha..anyway yea today was good.

rest in peace jean.

yea so tomorrow i have to go to ricky soranno's wedding shower thingie. so that should be cool cuz i get to see kelly who i havent seen in forever. but idk im kinda iffy about it cuz she will prob have tons of family and like family friends there so she might not get to talk to me as much..and yea idk hopefully it will be fun. peace out fools.

<33

no regrets.

eat your coleslaw playa...eat your coleslaw..

2005-07-22T17:21:05Z

uhm so this livejournal thing is kind of boring now lol. yet i continue to update it? i suck.

wednesday- uhm adrian came over and we watched old school, a cinderella story, part of she's all that..and yeaaa..talked to paul and devin. they are cuuuties. i love paul haha. and uhm yea then devin left and i was kind of nervous cuz my mom was coming home and i didnt want her to like freak out cuz it was just me and adrian home. but suprisingly she didnt say anything so that was a little shocking. adrian calls the clicker a controller or channel changer...it makes me laugh..he calls my chickens "hens" haha. yea he likes a cinderella story..hes a big dork. but then amanda came over cuz she had to spend the night for tennis ... so adrian went home cuz he had to babysit and then yea me and amanda played this game and we got really into it and were screaming at the computer at like 1 in the morning as my mom is yelling at us to shut up and go to bed. haha wednesday was good.

thursday- went to tennis cuz my mom is lame. i actually could have gotten out of it but i said i WANTED to go cuz i needed practice. i SUCK. haha but yea so tennis was kind of fun. we actually did new stuff for once. i suck horribly and jr yelled at me alot. i basically just do everything wrong..soyea its kind of depressing. but anyway we left early went to subway even tho i wasnt hungry, took amanda home, drove like an hour out to my eye doctor appt to see BIIGGGG CHRIIISSSAAYYY aka dr.chow haha i love that man. the lady looked at my eye..i blinked and hit this lil thing that she used to look at my eye..i was like oh snap im sorry i just hit ur lil eye looky thing. im sorry...idk but i found that really funny and then when he told me its gonna be like 3 or 4 more months or i just might never be able to wear contacts in that eye again..i was like wow thats gay. hes like excuse me? cuz he didnt hear what i said i was like..Oh...thats..not...cool...hahaha it was funny. but yea that really sucks balls. i better be able to wear contacts again or i will kill everyone. everyone.

uhm today is friday and my bday is in 5 days..but my dad is leaving for upnorth sunday so we are going out to eat for my bday..woop woop. so yea thats cool.. then idk whats going on.

people are really gay lately. and i have learned that the people i thought were my best friends...are pretty much lame. and not the people i thought they were. but hey whatever. im good i have a couple close friends and thats all i need
quality is better than quantity. whores.

<33333

...i love the cocaine. i love the cocaine.. <33

so..it's been a while...

2005-07-20T17:34:41Z

alright wow. first off.. i over-react. i just wanted to say that haha okay..

friday- woke up at like 930..got ready...hit the road for illinois babyyy.. uhm so yea listened to my cd player like most of the way..me and devin took some funny pix cuz we are cool like that..she stuck a pen cap up her nose...went to pizza hut...longggg drive..uhm so yea a tire popped on this truck..it was funny..me and devin are gonna write a letter haha..and uhm what else..my dad almost killed us several times..crazy driver...then we got there..checked into the embassy suites..it was niiice. and uhm then my cousins came and we walked around the hotel..then we went with casey and her bf to see WEDDING CRASHERS..and let me tell u its like one of the funniest movies ever..maaan..you should go see it. <33

saturday- woke up. didnt like the breakfast buffet. uhm didnt go downtown like i wanted to..went shopping with kp and devbo instead...didnt buy anything..new favorite store=HOT RAGS. i wish we had them in michigan..its cool and makes me think of hippies. i <3 hemp and bob marley..anyway then i tried on homecoming dresses cuz my mom thinks im going or something. it was kind of fun. then we came back and went to my cousins party. it was kind of boring. nobody even talked to us except all my family from michigan..it was pretty pointless to even go out there cuz they just ignored us but hey whatever. my lil cousins hate me cuz i dont play with them cuz im afraid they will hurt me and i will play back and hurt them haha.. i suck. then we came back and went swimming. me and devin played chicken. i won one..lost 2...it was crap i should have fun but it was funny cuz my dad was like OH DEV UR LUCKY U JUST WON THAT CUZ A COUPLE MORE SECONDS AND I WAS GONNA PUNCH CHRISSY IN THE CHEST...funniest thing everrr...haha and omg earl and haley playing chicken..she wouldnt let go of devin..and had her nose plugged so we had no free arms to push earl..and earl is just punching her in the head..good stuff let me tell you.

sunday- uhm we packed our stuff up. drove to see the other mall. got dunkin donuts..went to say bye to my cousins..talked to them for a while..then we went to schaumburg to see my other cousins...stayed there for like an hour..saw their new kitchen and stuff which i havent seen in like 5 yrs..saw my uncle who i havent seen in forever..he was super nice.it was weird. then we finally left. it took like forever to freaking get home..then i came home and watched shark week..it was kind of boring though so that sucked. haha

monday- uhm i hung out with MARIE! who i havent seen in like 8 yrs. we were gonna go to the 5 oclock dollar show and see kicking and screaming..but we were late so we just drove around in the pouring rain..then went to the car dealership to see if we could get her radio fixed..then we went to her house and she made me mac n cheese and hot dogs..cuz im sweet. haha then this kid like who was next door was like hitting on me..but hes retarded so it was funny..and then uhm we went to the movies..and took annes two lil boys..it was a cute movie. i love will ferrell..then uhm we talked to anne for like a half hour about how liz sucks at life haha. then marie took me home and amanda was over. i walked in on dave...jessicas bf peeing..but he was done thank god..haha i was like AHHHH!!! WHAT!! AHHH!?!?! WHO ARE you!!?! it was funny haha..but whoa..

tuesday- went to tennis..kind of sucked..but did okay i guess. then amanda came back we got taco bell <33 showered and straightened our hair? idk why cuz i wasnt going anywhere lol..uhm then we watched shark tale..but she left before it was over.. ryan thomas came over as a suprise..finished shark tale..watched shrek2..napped a little...watched SHARK WEEK!! haha he wouldnt go home hes such a loser..we chased my chickens? my dad yelled at me..it was gay..then uhm adrian came over to get his movie..he stayed for like..5 mins..then they both went home and stupid ryan changed my away message so i tried to beat him up thru his car window..it didnt work..haha but yea..

last night made me kind of happy.

anyway..shits been good. life is good. cept summer is almost fucking over..how queer.

ANDDDDDDD...MY BDAY IS IN SEVEN DAYSSS MOTHA FUCKAAAAS. i dunno why im so excited cuz its not like im doing anything and im not getting my license either haha.. so basically i suck.but i think im gonna go to the zoo on my bday even tho its like 903480 degrees....lemme know if u wanna join bitches. July 27th!!

yaayyyy.
k im done now.

and maybe..you're gonna be the one that saves me.

2005-07-15T03:15:22Z

so alright let's see.
tuesday night- called marie. talked to her for like 2 1/2 hours and it was nice. me and her and devin made fun of toni the lesbian..in a croc hunter voice devin was like "today we are tracking the toni!!..her natural hobbies are kissing girls, downloading porn, and touching herself!!" and then we listened to marie sing her bonnie mckee song..haha i love that girl <33

wednesday- went to the eye doctor. he said my eye could have been irritated from like taking a shower with my contacts on..or like wearing the throw away ones longer than 2 weeks when i was supposed to throw them away..and yea i have to go back next wednesday to see..and i have to use the eye drops..and he said next week he will be able to tell like if its gonna take a long time to heal or whatever. and yea hes like it could be weeks or maybe several months like 3 to 4 months he doesnt know yet. i was like O.M.G haha and he said it made end up being i may not be able to wear contacts ever again..which would totally and completely suck a large penis. haha anyway they put these eye drops in that dialated my pupils so i had like barely any blue in my eye it was ALL BLACK..it was crazyyy..and yea it was so bright outside and cuz my pupils were dialated it hurt like 10 x worse..and i had to squint and look down and follow my mom haha..we went to marshalls and i bought cute picture frames that matched my bedroom..then we went to subway and came home. then uhm idk what else i did then amanda came over and we talked about stuff. i told her a buncha crap thats been happening she talked about her cali vacation that she hated and yea..it was good stuff..haha then we watched tv and yea i just love amanda. lol the end.

thursday- uhm today i went to tennis with amanda. i sucked at first. then me and tucci beat the mafia! we lost like 5 games to 0 then we came back and won 4-1 i was like..hells yea biiitches. haha and i got in a fight with a 12 yr old boy. he was a bitch okay. and yea i got really into this one game where jr said the losers had to do the chicken dance..we won the point and i was like HAH YESSSS!! IN YOUR FACE! i think everyone thought i was a little crazy or something haha. then after we went to my grammas and got BK. took amanda home. got these dolls from my grammas cousin. then came home i think. and yea i showered. black kid came over and we went to best buy..omg we had the best moment ever..we both started singing the theme song to the wayans bros. and we were like GIMME A HIGH 5! and high 5ed eachother right in the middle of best buy haha i <333 uss.. then we went to american eagle..i saw FUCKING KELLY SORANNO!!! <3333 yes i miss her. i get to see her like next saturday at her bros wedding shower. so thats cool. then uhm we went to DQ..came back to watch Shrek2...couldnt find Shrek2...sat and watched him dance to the thong song and stuff..haha it was funnnyyyy...devin went on a date with PAUL!...uhm adrian came overrr and brought shark tale which was sweet and ive been dying to watch for like ever..<333 and he gave me this light up ring that makes me think of a rave or something haha..then we watched some of the movie..some pimp my ride..then some true life. then adrian went home..me and ryan watched the fresh prince..ryan went home..and uhm yea i think i messed something up really really bad. and im kind of depressed right now. hopefully im wrong. :(

maannnn what did i do?....i juss dunnoo.. *sad face*

but yea today was cute. i guess. until now of course.

alright im out.

chicago tomorrow..for the whole weekend..which i dont really want to go to at all. esp now. ughhh...

....and i'll be seeing you.

2005-07-13T01:37:49Z

uhm so yea. today devin woke me up and she was reallllly close to my face. it was kind of scary haha.. but yea i had to get ready and go to tennis. i saw these cute baby chicks down my street when i was calling jolyn i was like LOOKKK BABIIIEESS!! haha and yea i called jo to see if she was gonna be my partner haha..and yea then uhm i went. i played with valerie a bit..she is really nice. i like her alot better than stupid steve elsesser..hes a weiner..but shes a cool kid. she told me to feel better and stuff. we like her. haha anyway so then we served and i got my freaking serve back!! yesssss! like last time i couldnt even like get any in..and i kept double faulting which i like never do. it sucked. anyway i got it back. and im happy..then we did some volley drills.. i did alot better than i did last time..so that was a plus..then uhm we did this like driving drill or something..and of course im with like the best freaking girl there...she was like amazing. i was ashamed of myself haa..but yea that sucked but who cares shit happens. then we started playing games. yea i wanted to sit down for a while cuz i was getting kind of dizzy and i felt like i was gonna pass out..then jolyn was like YEA WE ARE READY TO PLAY! so i was like..hmm kay i guess im playing. i played against the same girl that beat me last time with BERT - bert wasnt there today *sad face*- haha and her partner was that annoying lil 8th grader or something. yea me and jolyn werent really doing that bad. i mean i thought we were gonna get smoked but we held out ground. we lost of course. but we did it tastefully haha.. then uhm i had to sit out..then i thought i was fine..played singles with emily..had to sit out again cuz i couldnt see the ball..like u know when u look at the sun and its really bright and then u look at something white and everything white looks really bright and neon like the sun? thats how EVERYTHING looked..so i like couldnt even see the ball so i had to sit out again.. then i felt better..so i played with the one girl who kicked my ass with bert..i think her name was lisa or something...and i wasnt doing bad..i was nervous that i was gonna suck in front of all these girls i didnt know..but i did okay. then the girls like do u want to serve? i was like yea uhm i cant really see anything and i explained the sun thing to her..she kind of laughed and was like ha okay i will serve then..i waslike uhm yea..i think im gonna sit out..im sorry...haha i think she thought i was like crazy or someting..but she had a white shirt on so i like couldnt even see her haha. so yea i sat down. i felt like a major pansy too. cuz like i havent even been there for the past week..i have only gone to ONE other class besides that and it was already the 4th week or something and i had to sit out. i felt like a looooser. haha anyway yea i went to my grammas chugged some water. I LOVE MY GRAMMA. SHE IS COOLER THAN U. then uhm we went to my eye doctor for a sec.. went to shars for a few then came home and my computer was messing up. i took a looong shower..it was nice. then i watched tv for like forever. took a nap..when i actually fell asleep my mom woke me up and was like its 9..im taking u to the doctor..u sleep way to much..i was like..UGHHHHHH haha but yea then i woke up and came on here.

OH and i was happy today that my parents didnt say anything about the whole adrian thing. like my mom asked me a question like about the movie or soemthing.. and devin asked me why he was such a dick..and my dad asked me if he was a gentleman or something? i pretty much dodged those haha but yea im glad my dad didnt say anything bout last night cuz idk but i was like freaking out that he was gonna ask me all these questions and like "talk" to me haha.. maaan im a pansy. i suck. but its okay cuz i say so.

i think im gonna call muhreezy right now. cuz she is back from her lil vacayyy thingie. YAY!

<333 peace out hooome sliiice.

dOnTchA baaabbyyy ?

2005-07-12T04:30:55Z

alright so.
sunday- woke up..i think my brother was still drunk. him kayleigh tony and tony were playing badminton..losers..uhm we all watched cartoons..and yea i found out alyssa got so drunk at the party that she threw up like 5 times..she tried to blame it on like food poisoning or something she ate..haha what a looooooser. and yea..then uhm my brother like beat me up. i went to my grammas.. went to target ( in my pajamas..didnt brush my hair either) hahaha..then uhm said bye to the cousins..watched clueless for a lil ..then came home and yea..we went to taco bell <333 and uhm watched dodgeball with my sis and dad for a lil bit.

monday- uhm lets see. i watched strip search for a while..hott guys..they got like kicked off so i was sad..haha then uhm watched this scary ass episode of buffy the vampire slayer that i watched one time before school in like 7th grade and it freaked me out the whole day..and like in it they cut the hearts of ppl out..so that day at school i had chest pains like all day..i found that weird..haha anyway after that me and dev went and played EXTREME BADMINTON..which lasted for hmm..about 10 minutes haha..ballerssss..i know haha and uhm then we came back in..and yea basically the rest of the day consisted of me showering and getting ready and listening to this black eyed peas song about 189893 times and dancing. yaaaay. haha then uhm i went with adrian to see bewitched. i really like his dad's truck. it is shiny and pretty and big and new and yea..i like it alot.haha so yea uhm it was funny cuz on the way to the movies he like took a side street but there was a detour so we just went around this neighborhood for ten minutes..pointing out fat girls walking down the street.hah then yea the movie was okay. it wasnt really what i expected but then again i didnt really want to see it that much anyway lol but it was kind of cute. he took my shoe and dropped it down underneath the chair in front of us..and since it was like lower we couldnt get it until after the movie..so my foot was cold and flipflop-less..i was sad. haha but yea the funniest part of that movie was the one brick guy from anchorman..that guys freakin hilarious. <33 and yea..we saw becky amross on the way out..shes cute. haha then we went back to my house and watched 10 things i hate about you..and yea my mom was watching a movie in the living room so we had to watch it in my room on the tiny lil tv...and yea after he left my mom was like YEA CHELS THAT WAS PRETTY HOKY U TWO LAYING ON UR BED LIKE THAT. I DIDNT LIKE THAT VERY MUCH. AND DAD KIND OF GAVE ME A FUNNY LOOK. i was like WHAAAT!? u were the one who made us watch it in there cuz u were watching ur dumb lil movie. shes like well why didnt u go out there when i told u i was done. i was like uhm cuz the movie already started and was like halfway over so we just stayed in there.. shes like yea well idk about that.
OMFG..that made me reaaaaallly mad cuz wtf im not a fucking whore im not gonna sit there and do anything with this kid on my freaking bed while my parents are home. omg my mom is so dumb. and yea idk now i feel gay cuz tomorrow my dad is gonna bug me and ask me all these questions about it and be like..so what did u two do!? and omg when we first when in my room..and my dad went to bed my mom was like U TWO DONT DO ANYTHING OKAY!! NO KISSING OR TOUCHING..HIS ROOM IS RIGHT HERE..HE HAS GOOD HEARING..and she was like laughing and stuff thinking she was being funny..i was like...*gun to head*.. seriously..and yea idk that just made me mad..like they dont trust me or anything my god.

and yea before i actually felt bad..cuz my dad was like wearing his lil work outfit and his like cowboy hat thing..and hes like hey whens he coming? i was like idk why? and hes like well tell me so i can go in the garage and hide so i dont embarrass you. i felt bad cuz idk i mean he doesnt really embarrass me..he did a little the last time..but now i dont even care..but i felt bad cuz he prob felt bad too...but yea now..tomorrow im not even going to care cuz hes gonna bug me about the whole bedroom thing.. ugh my family is lame. i am never having people over again.

and yea...so that was my day.

peace out home sliiiice. <33

gotta get the squitos!! DEET DEET!!

2005-07-10T03:43:37Z

so uhm yea...last night were the taylor fireworks. i was pissed cuz i thought we were gonna come home from my grammas and then go but no we went straight from my grammas to target then we walked to the fireworks. so of course i looked like a bum and i had my freakin flip flops on. u dont wear flip flops to the fireworks ok. but yea i was mad too cuz i thought it was just gonna be me and my sis and cousins. and then when i found out we were hanging out with her friends i was like well this is gay i wanna go with my friends then. but we didnt go home so i didnt get a chance to talk to anybody. so i just got over it and yea it ended up being me devin kayleigh kyle and julie. it wasnt bad. we walked from pier1 and we went back to the baseball field like right where they light them off so we were in the PERFECT spot..the fireworks were like directly in front of us like above us. it was sweet. and yea they were really good. devin was saying that she thinks taylor uses all of its money on the fireworks. it doesnt use it for the actual city or the roads or anything..just the fireworks lol. then after kyle and julie left and it was cute cuz kyle was like are u sure u girls are gonna be okay walking by urself. hes cute lol..so me kay and devin walked around cuz we wanted to see if we saw any1 we knew.. yea well there was wayyyyy too many people and it was soo crowded and their was like crazy scary black people everywhere so we just got sick of it after like 12 mins and started to walk back. i saw TOM PRINGLE!! i love him. but its gay how i talked to him and always said how i loved him and devin was like ew.. but now she loves him and she married him at sadies..yea real cool dev. lol..yea and i saw joey showler and like a buncha new seniors but i didnt say hi or anything and yea..on the way back we ran into matt and marissa and we walked back with marissa and her friend. then yea my mom came and picked us up and we went to taco bell i got that new thing i forget what its called..but its like a taco wrapped in a thing and its "good 2 go" yea it was like freakin gloriousss. i loved it haha yay for taco bell. then yea we came home and went to bed lol.

today uhm my mom woke me up and yelled at me. i helped move picnic tables then i got ready and stuff for this damn party. i went with nel and my mom to get the sauce and chicken and we went and got balloons too. omg the guy at the balloon store..jason..he was 20..he was really hott haha but yea he was like high or wasted or like had a hang over..hes like im sorry..i dont know where any of the balloons are..i had a late night last night cuz the fireworks. and we are just like wow u dont really know anything do u. hes like im sorry we are remodeling..man i should get a raise for curling all ur ribbons..SHIT i forgot to curl that one..no dont order that balloon special cuz its so hard to make..it takes me like an hour to tie it..hahah he was soo funny i was like wow. lets get married. and me and janel were telling him how alyssa is a fat dirty whore who doesnt deserve these balloons and hes like.really? u should give me her number..i was like hA! i <3 you! but yea then i came home and marie and toni were here.. they think my grammas cute..cuz she IS. and yea then we set up badminton and me and dev and kayleigh played fuckin extreme hardcore badminton..it was cuuuraazy.. then uhm yea we just watched ppl play horseshoes and stuff.i think devins friend roger is really cute im not gonna lie. lol and yea now like all my brothers and sisters friends are over having a bonfire and getting wasted. they played basketball which was funny. cuz roger sucks and yea they were like half drunk and all falling over and shit. and omg my brother had to pee while playing horse shoes..funniest thing ever...he went in the bushes hes like AHH MOSQUITOS!! ahhhh! i was like GOTTA GET THOSE SQUITOS!! DEET DEETT!!! hahah..i chased ppl with the DEET! it was good stuff.. and yea uhm now everyones outside getting drunk. and maybe i would be having fun if i had some of my friends or something..but i have nobody here my age and im upset cuz i seriously hate when my brother is drunk. its funny cuz like they all went in the back and got huge fucking trees..yes actual trees and carried them to the bonfire..then they cut it with an axe to make smaller peices..they were all singing and cheerin..and being fucking retards lol..but yea my brother is obnoxious and idk he just scares me.. like he starts yelling at me and pushing me..like he will give me a hug then push me and idk i just got really scared cuz i thought he was gonna like hurt me..cuz he was like trying to show off in front of his jack ass friends. just like alyssa..shes like talking to all these college boys but idk why they talk to her cuz shes got the HIV and shes a dirty whore. i mean shes really not even that cute but all the boys are like huddling around her. lame. and yea stupid tony keeps making fun of me cuz i had a j.lo hoodie on. yea they are funny when they are drunk but they just get mean and obnoxious...so yea.. that pisses me off. and i am seriously like afraid of my brother when hes drunk. but yea uhm im kind of upset right now. i mean tonight was funnny but now its just like..wow please go home.lol so yeaaa i think im done right now. i dunno maybe i will write more later.
oh and my cousins are sposed to leave tomorrow so thats kind of cool cuz i wanna hang out with some ppl real soon..before i have to start going back to damn tennis which ruins my day cuz every night amanda has to spend the night before so i cant hang out with ppl. but oh well what can ya do? and yea i guess friday im like leeaving for chicago to go visit my other cousins and that should be sweet but yeaaa..and then my bday is in like 18 days. i wanted to have a bonfire and have ppl spend the night in tents. but idk if ppls parents will be up for that. plus i dont think we can have a bonfire cuz my dad will be upnorth. so maybe i can do it when he gets back? but that will be in like august and thats gay..and idk if i can do it before he goes upnorth cuz that is gonna be real soon. oh well shit happens. im done.

peaceeee outttt homeeee sliiiiiiice. <3333

wow.

2005-07-08T17:18:54Z

so uhm yesterday i went to 12 oaks with my cousins and everyone. i didnt buy anything though cuz i didnt really see anything i wanted. then after that we came home and went to pizza hut with everybody. it was freakin hilarious cuz we were like all talking about quails and some bug that sounds like a telephone ringing...and omg it was just the funniest thing ever cuz we were all like laughing hysterically and screaming. this is why i love my family we have the funniest freakin times ever. we are pretty effin hardcore. anyway then we went to my grandmas AGAIN and everyone but me and janel went to renee's to see her new house. so me and janel just sat there and confused my grandpa.. we were like BANANA!? hes like what? im like BANANAS?!?! hes like..i threw the bananas away...it was funny but i guess u would have to understand the joke.lol..then we went and watched this guy across the street throw smoke bombs into the street...oh the excitement.lol then we came home and omg on the way home we made fun of my mom and we made her wear a helmet..cuz we had the motorcycle helmet cuz kayleigh had rode to pizza hut with my dad..but yea she was like wearing the helmet and flailing around it was possibly the funniest thing i have ever seen before. but she wouldnt do it when we were next to a car so that made me sad. oh and some guy next to us was like flipping out cuz the guy in front of him wasnt turning even tho there were like 3 signs that said NO TURN ON RED. it was the funniest thing ever.. and then my mom was like...it says no turn on red..and yea i bet that crazy foreigner felt pretttyyyy dumb haha.. And omg on the way to 12 oaks..it was the funniest thing ever. cuz we were talking about how my nerdy brother is like in love with G-Unit and tells us how they are ruthless killers and nobody fucks with them cuz they just kill everyone. and my mom thinks 50 cent needs to go to sylvan learning center to learn how to speak right. my brother was like right because people are gonna wanna listen to him speaking correctly and all proper..."would you like to come with meeee..to the store..?" hahahahah funniest thing ever.. then my mom is talking about how dirty all the rappers are..talking about ramming it up your ass til you bleed...and smashing ur head into the head board..spreading your legs like peanut butter...hahaha i never ever want to hear those things come out of my mothers mouth again haha. then shes like why cant they sing about nice stuff..like..."lets go to the store so i can buy you a nice tiffanys bracelet"...hahaha it seriously was the funniest thing ever. and devins like haha i could just see mom as a rapper..."Ram it Up your ass by Kpizzle" hahaha...shes gonna be famous. just watch. but yeaaa it was funny.

then today i stayed in bed as long as i could cuz everyone was cleaning for this damn party. i woke up to everyone screaming at alyssa which was funny.. i pulled sum weeds.. uhm moved some plants...and then picked up some like tree things or something. yea hard work.. haha then we came back in and uhm i went on here.

tonight are the taylor fireworks and im not going to lie. im excited. so i hope it doesnt rain and i hope we get to go. and tomorrow is the freaking party.. so yea that should just be loads of fun. i guess my brother and sisters friends are all coming later tomorrow night for a bon fire or something to get really wasted. this should be fun. cuz it is extremely fun to watch them when they are drunk. devins party was a blast cuz they all played basketball at 4 in the morning when they were drunk..goooood stuffff...haha but yea. if you want you can probably come cuz i dont think anyone cares who is even coming to this party anymore. haha oh well. peace out fools <33

so yea idk if i wrote what happened wednesday or tuesday..i might have..but who honestly cares? haha k good bye

OOOH.. and someone is really really on my nerves right now. im not gonna say names. you might be able to guess who it is. but yea they need to fucking get over it. you should tell people what is going on and not fucking ignore them cuz ur afraid to hurt their feelings. stop being a fucking pansy. gawwwwdddd.

"she's got the HIV" ..haha...

2005-07-07T01:52:48Z

so alright let us see.
yesterday i went to the mall and i saw like a ton of people. i saw liz lojo..sammy lojo! who i love. kelly knapp garret theirry scott gunaca and i think maybe danny flynn but idk i saw MELISSA WILHIDE and april kovacs so i was like..damn imma baller. haha yea but going to the mall when you have zero dollars is not fun at all. my mom is a poo face. anyway then we came home and just chilled...woo tons of fun i know right.

i miss my friends. i miss ryan calling me everyday and telling me to put pants on cuz we are going out. i feel like a loser. my cousins are here so i havent really talked to anyone and i dont know if im allowed to go out. but yea today my cousin was like..so ches..u like never go out do you? i was like...what. yes i do. and idk it just made me feel like a real big loser. haha i suckkkk. its not cool to look bad in front of my cousin alyssa. cuz she is dumb and if i look bad in front of her...its a major slap in the face. haha

anyway so last night since we have like no room at all in our house my brother slept with me in my bed? haha and no its not some gross incest thing its just all my cousins are here and there is no beds or couches or anything left. i basically told him stories about team sports and how everyone in there hated me cuz i didnt try. and how i hate everyone at school. i dont think he was listening though cuz it was like 3 in the morning hah.

today i just sat around and chilled with my cousin janel. shes 22 and shes cooler than you. and yea we just made fun of my other cousin alyssa.. she has like sores on her arms from bleach or something cuz she used to work somewhere where she cleaned alot. and yea we make fun of her and tell her she has the HIV. hahaha . so basically we made fun of her, watched TV, made fun of people of TV, called my mom 289312 times and yea.. it was cool. then we went to the mall real quick. then to my grandmas and me and devin made fun of my grandpa and bananas cuz we're cool kids. haha

then after that we went to par-fection. i thought i saw adrians truck but i was like..hmm.idk? then ryan and steve and PAUL and devins friends came and ryan was like yea whered adrian go? i was like what? hes like..u didnt see him? he was just here? so idk if he was serious or not but i was like..aww i missed him. so i tried to call him and be like HEY COME BACK..but he doesnt like to answer his fone cuz hes laaaame. so i sat there and watched everyone suck horribly. man ryan. you are horrible. hahah its funny tho. devin hit the man in the cart!! she was so proud. i was proud of her haha <33 good job. and yea it was just funny. it was cold though..and me and janel made fun of this fat whore. she was fat. and she was a whore. it was good stuff.

tomorrow we are going to 12 oaks. and i get to miss tennis! again!!! haha yessss bitch. i got to miss it tuesday too.man im a baller.

T is for TORTOISE. so yes. me and my cousins renamed VAGINA, TORTOISE. haha so yea me and my cuz kayleigh just wrote all over this magazine..that ALYSSA LOVES TORTOISE. and when i was in the mall i yelled AHH UR HAND WAS IN MY TORTOISE. it was really funny. and it sounds funny when u say it with other things like...WAX UR TORTOISE. GET UR TORTOISE OUT OF MY FACE. and other such things. okay maybe its only funny to me..but who cares ima baller yo. hahah..

this entry was extremely extremely pointless. but i liked it ALOT. in youuuur face.

WHEN ARE THE TAYLOR FIREWORKS!?!?! I WANT TO GO. NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

there is 21 DAYS until my 16th BIRTHDAY!!...write it down. buy me gifts <33..

rest in peace <3

2005-07-04T17:51:34Z

my dog died today.
rest in peace. <33

he was pretty much the coolest dog ever too. like he was sooo huge and furry and he looked like a freakin grizzly bear. he was the cutest dog ever. and even though he was huge and scary looking he was the nicest dog ever. like seriously, everyone loved him. ryan loved him cuz he protected us from ugly neanderthal golden retrievers. lol. he seriously cannot be replaced. and it was the most horrible experience too. what a great 4th of july. i wake up to devin telling me he died.. he was under the porch cuz hes afraid of fireworks..and he just died under neath..so we had to lift it up and pick him up..i seriously think i am scarred for life.his eyes were open. *sad face*...me and devin just went and sat on the ground and just balled our eyes out. we went and watched them bury him. it was seriously the saddest thing ever. we all cried. my brother wouldnt show it but you could tell he was really upset. he hasnt been having a good year. his best friend died last september and now his favorite dog. ugh this really sucks. and plus its on the 4th of july. today is gona be hard and its really gonna suck. and yea idk we are gonna get two new puppies in a while cuz we always have 2 german shepherds outside..and natasha is getting old so we are gonna get two so they can grow up together. but its sad cuz u cant replace ranger. <33 aw man i loved that dog. but i guess its alright. he is in a better place now. and now hes not hot and dying from the weather anymore... so thats good.
i wonder if he would have lived longer if he would have let him cut his hair and give him a bath lol. idk maybe maybe not. its okay though. hes better off now. <3

rest in peace baby <33 *muah

later on...
uhm well we had my fam over - cousins and grandparents- ate dinner..i basically just went online all day cuz there was nothing to do...then uhm my brothers friends came over and a few of devins and they are like all getting drunk in the garage and shit..they came in and ate literally all the food in our house...then uhm i called marie and ryan cuz i havent talked to them in like 4 days and i was having withdrawals haha..but yea uhm i just talked to ryan and steves friends came in..tony and ryan..took the phone away from me and started questioning ryan about me like...Do u like chelsey in a romantic way? Dont even think about touching her. i will kill you if you touch her..and tonys like OH U WANNA FIGHT?! and he kept saying that ryan told him he was going to bring his homeboys over to kick his ass..hahaha it was the funniest thing ever..they actually took the fone away from me and went outside and talked to him..i was like..wow if this was anyone else i would kill you..but its ryan so its funny haa and then they came back a second time..and my brother was like Ryan? did u tell tony u were gonna come with ur gang and kill him...cuz he keeps saying that ur gonna kill him..haha it was pretty much the funniest thing ever...drunk guys=loads of excitement...they are extremely retarded...but still very entertaining haha..

yea and uhm anyway i still havent seen like one single firework..and i think all thats left is taylor and maybe romulus..i better get to see some damn fireworks..or i will just kill everyone.

EVERYONE.

kayleigh is the coolest 12 yr old ever... me and her are ballers maaan. <33 be jealous.

rest in peace rangie <3

let's get hiiiiighhh...

2005-07-04T02:12:07Z

uhm so yea last night i got no sleep at all. i just laid there and contimplated life and such. i seriously dont think i slept like at all..i got up at 5 and drank like 3 glasses of orange juice..went back to lay down...listened to my mom and dad talk as they like got ready...then i got up at like 7 watched rocket power and rugrats and then some video countdown thing and MADE..haha this kid wanted to be a rapper...it made me laugh like out loud.. NILE! <33 haha..so yea all the good tv is on early..they play CRAP in the afternoon..CRAP! haha anyway yea so then my cousins came in today cuz we are having my one cousin's grad party here cuz all our family is in michigan. then uhm yea we went to my grandmas and just chilled. i complained cuz i was so freakin tired. i went home early with my brother and took a nap i seriously just woke up at 930..haaha and now i dunno if i will be able to sleep tonight..but i prob will since im still extremely tired. gahhh.. anyway i love my new bed. devin might have to sleep with me today cuz all the cousins are here.. it kind of makes me sad..but i will live. haha anyway yea i had to dodge more questions today. like my dad called and hes like Oh what time did your uhm..boy.. leave last night? i was like wtf i dont know...then my mom asked me what time he left..shes like isnt he 16 doesnt he have to be home by midnight.. i was like shit who cares. then i go to my grandmas and my brother shows up hes like..so i hear u went on a date last night? ehh? i was like...no..no i did not. he's like did u get some ass? i was like haha YESSSSS!...twice...haha and then like on the car ride home hes like...SO who was this date with?! how did it go? i was like..it wasnt a date okay. and hes like Oh thats not what dad said i was like well dad is dumb..he came in there in overalls a freakin cowboy hat...he was like saying his name all funny cuz in the movie Rocky..his wife's name is Adrian...so hes like ADRIIIIANN and he freakin gave him a FIST POUND good night...uhh *shudders*...and my brother just laughed...he was like ha..thats dad for ya.. omg so yes i have decided i am just never going to leave the house because my family is retarded and likes to ask wayyy too many questions and act really gay. ugh its lame. they suck. lol

yea..so i realized today when i tried to explain to devin what mr. and mrs. smith was about..like what happened...i totally do not know. i was like trying to tell her what i think happened..i was like wow..i dont really know...i wasnt really paying attention..shes like EW! i was like..ew no not like that... but seriously.. i dont know what happened...haha i rock. <3

okay so yea this week i will be with the cousins and we will prob go to the movies and shopping and stuff and then i think tomorrow we are having a lil party with the grandparents for 4th of july..and then on the 9th is alyssa's grad party. so that should be somewhat fun. yeaaaa i wanna see fireworks..cuz i have missed all the other chances to go..like woodhaven..wyandotte...metroparks...haha i suck man. wow. *head down*

Okayyy peace outttttt homies. <333

come on sweet catastrophe...!*

2005-07-03T04:56:50Z

uhmm so lets see...

friday i woke up and just lounged around for a while lol then i took like a realllyyy long shower cuz ugh i felt gross and my stomach hurt...being a girl really sucks ass...haha..anyway so then i went out to eat with my mom dad and devin. we went to pia's and i got pizza cuz i like always get pizza..like everytime..ever since i was little. anyway so yea it would have been good if my uterus wasnt like killing itself..and if devin wasnt being mean to me...and if my dad hadnt asked me all these questions about adrian coming over the other night. i hate questions. hes like who was this boy? is he your boyfriend? do you like him? does he like you? why did he come over then was he looking for food or something?..all i could say was..."uh..i dont know...no?" hahaha it was quite awkward really. haha anyway then after that i came home and uhm...yea idk sat around? i was supposed to hang out with adrian or something but we are dumb and always talk about hanging out but never actually do lol anyway so then devin was having people over and idk i didnt feel like staying here and ryan asked me to go to the woodhaven fireworks so i was like..eh..i dont want to but i have nothing better to do so yea i wore hot pink sweat pants and a hoodie cuz im sweet...put my hair in a nub..got my flip flops and we rolled out haha...psshhh who gets ready!? haha so anyway we went to DQ and i didnt want anything so ryan got a brownie earthquake and like rubbed it in my face? even tho it didnt affect me at all..then he washed that down with a slushie thingie...and yea..it was hilarious cuz his car mirror kept falling off so i had to roll down the window and push it back in..but i couldnt push it in and it would just keep falling out...it was pretty funny haha anyway so then we drove down there and there wasnt anywhere to park for like a mile and i was like hmm fuck that im not walking a mile okay i dont even care..haha so we came home and he stayed for a while and we talked to devins friends and we talked online and stuff...steve hancock bit ryans boob...and it was soooo funny he like flew on the floor screaming HE BIT MY TIT!! it was sooo funny hahah <333 anyway so yea then i went to bed after i kicked all the girls out of my new bed...sluts haha...yea and then i talked to ian and he said the fireworks were lame anyway so i was like HA IM GLAD I DIDNT GO...haha but yea i love how they all knew me and ryan were coming..but then when we never showed up they didnt bother to call and see if we were okay or anything...good friends..i know right.

and today uhm lets see.. saturday... i woke up...sat around...then took a shower and got ready. yea so i actually like flipped my hair out cuz i knew i was going somewhere for once and i wore devins skirt cuz she wore my shirt today so we like switched. yea well i think my mom and dad thought i was getting all dressed up or something..which i wasnt i have just been dying to wear devins skirt for a while lol and this was my chance..and i actually knew i was going somewhere today so i had time to flip my hair out...so yea anyway they asked me all these questions like..where are you going? who are you going with? is this a date? is he gonna pay for you? what are you gonna do? blah blah blah...it was so awkward and ah i hated it lol anyway so then yea he came and picked me up and my mom was being gay and annoying and like walked us out to the car cuz shes a fucking queer..haha anyway so yea we basically argued the whole time in the car haha then we went to the movies and saw mr. and mrs. smith and i must admit it was pretty gay like...amanda told me it was good and funny but wow it was pretty lame..and yea the whole movie me and him just like beat each other up haha it was kind of funny...then we saw that G kid..anjalis brother..and he like waved to adrian and asked us how the movie is..and some girls were with him and they were like smiling at me..i was like..heh..i dont know you...*smiles*...haha then we went to sportway and played putt-putt...lets just say...putt putt is not my thing haha...he got like a hole in one on like every one...and the ppl in front of us let us go so we wouldnt have to wait...yea so i dont really try and the girl was like..haha OHH i wish i was as good as u! i wish i could hit like that! i was like..haha SHUT UP..hahah what a fagg but yea anyway...he kicked my ass..but its okay i was ready for it haha..but aww he picked my ball up and threw it in the woods i was like..*tear*..haha but yea it was fun..but i wouldnt go on the go karts cuz im a pansy and im afraid of them. he made fun of me. then we came back to my house and watched billy madison..then we took it out to put happy gilmore in cuz we had a bet going on whether he said THE PRICE IS WRONG BOB or the PRICE IS WRONG BITCH...i was wrong...damn. haha then uhm we watched the rest of that...and he said the bum was the one guy that is like in every adam sandler movie and i was liek NO ITS NOT!...yea he proved me wrong AGAIN...*puts head down*..im sucha failure..haha then we watched tv even though there was like nothing on at all..and we basically just beat each other up and stuff..but it was cute. then he went home at like 1130 or w/e..what a long day...haha 5-1130...u'd think i would get sick of him or something. haha jk but yea...

today was fun. but im really tired...from doing like..nothing at all haha oh well

my cousins come in tomorrow...and dont leave for like... a week.. this is gonna be oh so much fun.

by the way..dont see mr.and mrs. smith..it was pretty lame...we should have seen bewitched like he wanted to hahha. nerd.

okay im done.this entry was dumb. peace out <33

fo sheezy muhreezy..haha.. idk..puts head down

2005-07-01T04:53:35Z

so uhm..last night amanda spent the night. we were watching breakfast club right after me and devin got in a fight. haha black kid came over and we just sat around then we went to dairy queen. we came back and watched coach carter...actually everyone else watched coach carter while me and amanda went online and talked to ian and adrian about pretty much the most random things ever. haha we were like quoting dane cook..and listening to his stuff..now amanda likes him..hes hott and hilarious what a wonderful combination..then me and amanda were like crazy hyper and just laughing about everything..we talked about wisdom teeth and like felt to see if we had them? haha we are crazy..then she drank like 4 day old milk..and the first one was good but the second was like rotten or sour or whatever and she gagged and it was the funniest thing ever..hahaha then we went and watched happy gilmore then finally fell asleep

this morning i woke up thinking wow i usually wake up around like 12 or 1..so maybe my mom forgot or is just not making us go to tennis today..>SWEET....then like 20 mins later my mom walked in and was like hey its 11 get ready we gotta leave in a half n hour..i was like FUCK SHIT DAMN MOTHERFUCKER..haha so then i got ready..and found out that i dont get to leave early..my mom was going to pick us up like an hour early cuz i had an eye doctor appt...yea well it wasnt until 2:45 so we didnt get to leave early..FUCK.. haha but then on the way there it started pouring and storming..so we went up there and no1 was there so we were like hey its cancelled! haha and then we went to this sticker store and erasers & crayons to get stuff for my cousins graduation posterboard thingie then we went to kfc and to my grammas...i love kfc..and i LOVE my grandma lol she was telling us a story about how she was sittin on the porch and these kids on their way to summer school were like HEY LOOK AT THAT LADY WITH THE WHITE HAIR..shes like those lil bastards! i shoulda been like HEY LOOK AT THOSE STUPID KIDS ON THEIR WAY TO SUMMER SCHOOL. hahaha i love her. then me and amanda watched VEnus williams kick sharapovas ass...hmm u go venus lol yea then i went to the eye doctor and he told me my eye still hasnt healed and he could give me more steroids or send me to a cornea specialist...im going to the cornea specialist..but he said its like not serious..its just taking longer to heal then most cases or something i was like WOW this is gay..im never going to be able to wear contacts again am i lol anyway after that we took amanda home and then we went to this harley shop to pick up my dads tire..then we went home and i took a much needed shower....then uhm i just chilled and then my mom started cleaning my room and she like made me help her and i was already in a really bad mood cuz of this stupid thing with erica ( erica if u read this...i thought about it and realized...hey im sorry i cared, do whatever the fuck you want ) and then i was like I DONT WANT TO FREAKIN CLEAN and i like yelled at kp and she yelled back and then i yelled back..then i cleaned and i did it all bitchy by like throwing stuff and slamming shit down and giving dirty looks haha then she called me a fucking bitch and told me to leave she didnt need my help anymore...hahah so for the first time like in forever i was actually afraid of my mother it was crazy. then i wanted desperately to get out of the house. i asked jolyn to go to the movies but she didnt want to see mr and mrs smith because she heard it was gay and she needed to be home by 11 or something..then i later found out that she went to the movies with her cousin and they were gonna see that movie but she saw bewitched again cuz it got out earlier..and the reason she didnt go with me was cuz her dad told her my dirt road would wreck her brand new car...fabulousss...anyway so then yea i asked adrian but he couldnt cuz he had to be back by 1030 to babysit his lil bro and sis so i was like GAAHH im never going to get out of here..so yea then i had to help carry in my new mattress and bed cuz it was starting to rain..and i started to help my mom put it all together and she was actually like not furious with me..and she was just calling me retarded and laughing at me cuz i kept tripping and knocking shit over haha and thennnnn adrian came over...what a suprise haha...so i was like sweet u came at a perfect time..now i dont have to help her anymore...haha so we went and watched tv and pretty much just like yelled and made fun of eachother the whole time haha then me him and devin went and laid on my big new QUEEN size bed...its nice...haha then he had to go home to babysit so he made me like walk him out to his car haha..nerd alert. and yea i told him a way to get out of my driveway cuz i didnt want him to back out cuz everyone gets stuck or hits the pole..and he totally did it a really dumb way and i just laughed haha but oh well after that uhm i watched tv and then came on here and talked to MUHREEZZYYYY who i feel like havent talked to u in forever even tho i talked to her earlier today haha..but yea i miss her. its been like 2 weeks since we hung out.. anyway yea..

today was good...and bad...

people really piss me off, and i guess im finally starting to figure out who my real friends are.

p.s. i LOVE my black kid <33 ryannnn thomasss is love

anyway yea so i think im done. i think tomorrow is friday...its already like july...ahh...summer is like..half way over? idk maybe not but it makes me sad haha.

kkkkkk peace out <33

detRoiT cityyyyy..!*

2005-06-29T21:28:15Z

SO uhm yea i havent been doing this.. so who cares.

lets see... uhm monday.. i amanda came over cuz she has to spend the night for tennis lessons and like yea we went out to harveys. thomas picked us up and we went to his house it was like 8..he doesnt get home til like 9 or 930..haha so we went and played at this park down the street..then we called erica and were like WHERE R U..she was home...we hung up..and went to her house...SUPRISE. yea shes like friggin black now shes so tan..but uhm yea she had other guys come over..so they were all playing basketball in her driveway and i was just like..Hmm..this is kind of awkward.. i havent talked to her in forver..and yea idk it just made me sad cuz i found out shes really not the person i thought she was. like i knew the stuff she was into and what she did and i dont really like that stuff but now i found out that she is alot worse i guess than i thought she was..so idk it just made me kind of sad. and idk i dont think we will really be hanging out this summer so oh well. :/ shit happens. then so yea we left cuz it was awkward and i was gettin bit by mosquitos so we went to harveys and uhm we had a bonfire? when it was like 90 degrees outside haha..we are dumb.. harvey cant build fires. but its okay cuz he's like hilarious and i just <3 him. i seriously think hes like one of the funniest people alive. so it was me amanda black kid jolyn lorin harvey giuseppe tucci and katie and nicole..idk where ian was..he had bball or something..anyway so katie was walking around and shes like whoa theres like a hill here..and harveys like yea i used to climb that hill when i was little..we had like different stations and stuff to stop at cuz it was so big...and hes just going on and on about this hill lol when it was like..a bump in the ground..haha and hes like yea u know how they have k2 its like k 17...like one of those NOW cds lol it was funnnnnnyy...anyway uhm yea so then we went to get dairy queen and i was like chris its gonna be closed.they close at 10..she we drive up there and its Open then right as we are about to pull in..the open sign turns off..it was the funniest thing ever..i was like HA..but chris talked to them and they opened it so we all got our ice cream *yay* and i had to pay for black kid and harvey cuz they are retarded and dont bring money? even tho everytime we hang out we go somewhere that u need to pay...silly boys. lol then we uhm took chris home took katie home and then black kid dropped us off..it was funnnn..

then tuesday we had tennis..it wasnt as bad as i thought it was gonna be..but i still sucked horribly and i was very depressed cuz ugh god i sucked so bad. the other kids werent even THAT good and they were kickin my ass lol and everyone kept talking about my hair..it made me sad..then i went to my grammas <33 and then i came home and ate subway! yay. and uhm then i took a nap..then watched some of the pacifier..adrian was gonna come over but devin had strep throat and was contagious so he couldnt haha then uhm we watched the BOONDOCK SAINTS..which is like my new favorite movie...its really good and the boys omg sooo hott...love the accents <33 love them haha it was good..we watched like the bloopers and stuff it was pretty hilarious. <33 yay

then uhm today i went to eastern with my mom and devin to get some scholarship shit for devin..then we went to tj maxx and they had cute hoodies like roxy and stuff for like 20 bucks so that was cool but i didnt buy any? cuz im dumb. haha then i looked for a bathing suit...nothing will fit my boobs ahh..so yea i prob wont be getting a new bathing suit this summer which sucks. esp since im going to florida in august..but oh well. thennnnn uhm we went to this ice cream place..which was really cool like they had all these diff flavors and they like mix it right in front of u it was cool..but i got a choc ice cream with choc chips and brownies...uhh i ate about 5 bites and i was like...uuhh i cant do it anymore. i felt bad throwing it all away..but it was wayy too much chocolate lol. oh well.. so yea idk harvey is supposed to have ppl over tonight and amanda has to come back over..but idk if we are going to harveys or not. oh well. im tired.

i dont want to go to tennis tomorrow but i get to leave early to see HOWARDDDD hopefully i can wear contacts again. cuz i got sunburned the other day and look like a raccoon cuz of my glasses lol anyway..yeaaaa uhm so my cousins are coming in next week.. which kind of ruined my plan for next week ..but oh well.. 4th of july is like NEXT WEEK..how crazy..and we are having my cousins grad party on the 9th..and yea that should be pretty cool. i <3 my family. andd yea there should be alot of fireworks and stuff and that will be cool. so yay for that

k this was a dumb entry.

bye

ii wanna looovee you foreverrrrrrr...

2005-06-27T16:11:47Z

so wow its been a while. let's see.. saturday..the 18th...went to marie's sister's grad party...ate a ton of brownies..listened to her family's convos and jumped on the giant dolphin moon bounce. it was hardcore. then she took me home i went to walmart with kp and devin and ewww walmart is GROSS...there are alot of dirty mexicans and ew it was just gross. then i came back and spent like 17983279 hours packing..i pretty much packed everything i owned haha. i rock. then uhm sunday..fathers day... family was over but i didnt get to see them cuz i left for the dirty dirty. so yea we drove for like 5 hours and stayed at a hotel watched the pistons..i think we lost. then we went to kings island and rode all the baby rides cuz amandas stomach is weak.. haha we went on the tomb raider ride and someone thru up..it was kind of funny...there are A LOT of hott boys in ohio..i mean alot. lol we went to the water park and didnt really do that much cuz we only had an hour. we went on this water ride and i got soaked.it was funny.. and i took a picture cuz i knew where the camera was with me doing my baller face..it was funny.. but we didnt buy it *sad face*...then uhm yea OH there was like 1294802 jesus references on the way down there..it was funny..like there would be random crosses on the side of the highway..and like there was a barn that said JESUS and a sign that said HELL IS REAL..and like there was a huuuuuge statue of jesus with his arms up like coming out of the water...and there would be like random signs that just said JESUS it was funny and kind of ironic cuz on the way there we were playin a game and i said Jesus for like every answer..and then all these jesus signs just started popping up..it was crazy stuff lemme tell u. uhm so at tennessee we uhm went to these forbidden caverns played tennis in like 95 degree weather..AMANDA BEAT ME TWICE *sad face*..but its ok i beat her at putt putt for like the first time ever..and she lost..hahaha in her face. uhm we went to an aquarium ..there was scratches on the glass and it was like THIS IS A RESULT OF A SHARK ATTACK...NO ONE WAS HURT...it made me laugh.. we went out to eat a few times...went in the pool..tanned lol..yea we didnt really do that much but it was nice and it was relaxing and it was alot better than just sitting at home u know. i would kind of want to go back..jus cuz its gay here..and there are gay people here..and i just love the peoples accents down there. lol OMG we were gonna go to the zoo down there.. but we didnt and it made me sad.. OOH and yea we went to the mountains which was like gorgeous and we hiked this like half mile..UP HILL trail to this spot where u can see all the mountains and like 7 diff states..it was pretty but it was hard work lol.

anyway so then last night..Sunday..i went to my grammas and ate SPAGHETTI she makes the best spaghetti everrrrrrrrr and shes cooler than ur gramma..anyway so then we found out our power was out at home and i got in a fight with devin..and then ryan called me on devins cell..hehe..and yea so i went home and got ready to go to harveys for his bday. on the way home from my grammas we saw like 3 accidents..one was on the highway and it was scary cuz there was like 12 ambulances and they even had the rescue helicopter there for like when its really really bad accident and they need to fly u to the hospital..it was crazy..and i saw ryan mendez driving on the street and i was like..its mendez! but he didnt see me cuz i was in my car.. haha..then we saw another accident where a car like hit a pole.i dont think anyone was hurt.. but like a few blocks down there was people in their pajamas like standing there and just watching the accident..and like its all quiet and my moms like OH GOD..and we are all just watching..then im like...I WAS WASHING A DISH..and me and devin burst out laughing...in case u didnt know thats from dane cook..a comedian..anyway so we start quoting all this dane cook stuff.it was like the perfect moment it was hilarious. then we came home and my dad like made us run in the house and slammed the door behind us so the air wouldnt go out..cuz our power was out..hahaha.. then me and devin danced like garth from waynes world his FOXY dance haha cuz she said my haircut looks like his...*sad face*..but it was funny..then i got ready..in the DARK with a flashlight? and ryan came and picked me up and me him and keri went and got GIUSEPPE!!! and the whole way there me and giuseppe quoted like every one of dane cooks things..and we were just crackin up..it was the funniest thing ever..i love giuseppe hes hilarious and he knew like everyone of them by heart..haha...then yea we went to harveys then went to applebees but the power was out there so we had to leave..and ian was being weird..like he came out and gave me a hug..and like kissed me on the nose? it was weird.. then we went to zorbas and it was funny cuz we asked the waitress like 20 times if they had ice cream i dont think she liked us very much..but yea zorbas was fun..and omg ian kept throwing like his straw paper at me..so i finally took one lil ball and like chucked it at him..it landed right in between his lips...it was the funniest thing ever...hahah im awesome. then they had a sticker machine and there was a penguin sticker and i was like GIUSEPPE GET IT FOR ME! so he like put his money in...it wasnt the right one...then the next try he got it!! i was so amazed..cuz i like NEVER ever get the sticker i want...i was so excited lol..yay giuseppe.. then uhm yea we dropped him off..dropped keri off..and me and ryan had a talk..haha it was fun..and the stupid power at our houses tricked us...THAT BASTARD...haha

but yea tonight was fun..tennessee was fun...this summer has been pretty fun..im excited.

but ewwww tennis starts tomorrow and its gonna suck. i dont want to go..UGH..and amanda has to spend the night like every night before it..and idk its not bad...if i go out shes gonna hafta like come with me all the time or we arent gonna be able to go..and that makes me sad.. but oh well i guess..

K peace out <33